Old movie

by Ali

Worrying about you,
Caring about you,
Is like a living hell,
Always being shocked,
always being hurt,
Always burning,

Helping you,
Saving you,
is harder then walking on egg shells,
Always being turned away,
Always invading your privacy,
Always breaking and being broken,

Needing you,
Wanting you,
Is like an addiction,
Always talking to you,
Always hanging around you,
Always on my drugs,

Having you,
Keeping you,
is harder then giving up on you,
Always forgotten,
Always second best,
Never valued,

Seeing you,
Watching you,
is like an old movie,
Faded memories,
Clouded meanings,
far far away.