Friends forever?

by Em

We will forever be friends
that's what I recall you said.
So, why am I sat here crying,
knowing that you wished my daughter dead?

When I told you that I was pregnant,
I thought that you'd be over the moon.
But, all you answered was "you're still young,
don't you think it happened too soon?"

You also said, when you found out,
I had just ten weeks to get rid.
So, my precious miracle
from you, I hid.

When I'd given birth to my little rock;
you came to see me.
You told me that I'd be able to get her adopted,
that it would set my devil self, free.

Of all the things that you have said
and that you have done
I can't forgive you for saying this,
I want you out my life, I want you gone.

You're not the person that I used to know.
You've changed so dramatically, so much.
I can't believe that you told me to abort my baby Jayne.
I wouldn't be holding her right now, I would never have felt her touch.

I usually listen to you all of the time
and I come to you for advice
but on this matter, I'm glad I never listened
because you're hearts as cold as ice.

As my friend, you should have been happy
and you should have helped me through the lonely nights
but all you did was make sure I knew you were disappointed
and that the final decision was yours and that it was right.

It's funny this friends are forever business
because whenever I needed you, you weren't there.
You showed me that you were jealous of my happiness
and that what I wanted didn't matter, you didn't seem to care.

I'm so glad that I had my beautiful,
most precious girl, my daughter
because I know I wouldn't have been able to cope
in life without hearing her laughter.

I'm writing this so that you know
that I'm happy without you in my life
because of all this that's gone on the past few years.
You've shown you didn't care that you caused me so much strife.

All I need is my wonderful girl,
I don't need 'friend's' like you.
I need only my daughter
to recognize a life so wonderful and true.

I can't believe you caused an argument
because I didn't invite you to Jayne's Christening.
How can you even moan about that
when in this friendship all I've caught you doing is not listening?

You called me selfish
but I was just upset
because of what you had said
and because of the bet.

I've found out a few months ago
that you placed a bet on Jayne's life.
How could you be so cruel?
How could you place a bet on my daughter's life?

You really don't know how much you've hurt me
and you don't know that I'm crying inside.
I thought you'd be so happy about my bundle of joy
but from you, we had to hide.

I don't think you'd have stopped
until she was lifeless; dead.
You really need locking up
for the things that you have said.

We will forever be friends
that's what I recall you said.
So, why am I sat here crying,
knowing that you wished my daughter dead?

Copyright: Emma Wallis